Filosofia
- Dear 2014, I Am Thankful. You Made Me Rise.
Querida Sofia, Já fiz grande parte do balanço de 2014 aqui. Para concluir o resumo, ao contrário de 2013, 2014 foi um dos melhores anos da minha vida e marcou-me muito, por razões extremamente positivas e extremamente negativas. Perdi...
- Karma, My (former) Love, This Is Karma!
Obrigada, querida Alicia Keys, não poderia definir a minha presente situação melhor do que tu. Thank you, my lovely Alicia Keys, for defining this whole situation I am currently in all too well. Weren't you the one who said that you don't...
- Ode To Last Night's Kiss
Shutting down the useless senses to let the ones required overflow. Putting yourself in a frame of mind where you do not listen anymore because you just strive to feel all this. Closing your eyes to sight and light because you want to touch. Giving a...
- Even Though We're Miles Apart...
I lie awake I've gone to ground I'm watching porn In my hotel dressing gown Now I dream of you But I still believe There's only enough for one in this Lonely hotel suite The journey's long And it feels so bad I'm thinking back to...
- Destiny - Zero 7
I lie awake I've gone to ground I'm watching porn In my hotel dressing gown Now I dream of you But I still believe There's only enough for one in this Lonely hotel suite The journey's long And it feels so bad I'm thinking back to...
Filosofia
I & U, Me & Ur eyes.
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I am used to sterile stares and glances that lead me to the moon but do not lead me to the extremely coveted balance I have ever needed in my life. I know I am a sucker for commitment, have been since I gave engagement rings to the boy that gave me my first kiss. The day after. I need that commitment for myself and to fulfill the lack thereof that I have felt through the years from family, close or not, and from friends or so-called friends, invasive acquaintances that almost ruined my quest for balance.
I am used to sterile stares and glances that lead me to the moon, that prevent me from sleeping, that make me dream, and even get me started on creating stories. I am that stupid kind of girl that thinks everybody that smiles back when I say "bonjour" wants to get married to me. And when they blush back, I am adamant they think I am the woman from their lives.
And what happens after? the dreams vanish. I set the target to someone else. Or I just focus on my life that is going way too fast for me at the moment.
As of lately, I have been accompanying the vanishing of my friends' relationships. Several girlfriends separated from their boyfriends. Several girlfriends are about to get a divorce from long relationships and short marriages. I am a true believer in the institution of marriage, I believe in it with all my guts, even if I come from a multiply multiplied broken home. This background has never made me not believe in marriage, but all the relationships falling apart around me, relationships I believed in somehow, that made me wonder "oh I want that too" have been a huge hurdle in my belief. I still believe in it, but I will believe in it more when you choose to marry the not that good looking guy, that gives you security, treats you like a princess and will never cheat on you. I do not want to generalize. But it seems to be key.
I am used to sterile stares and glances but this time it's different. It's a mix of peace and overjoy that no one seems to be able to take away from me. I miss it when I do not have it. I blush when I finally do.
And then came the dream, the mixed unbelievable reality. The Rule of Thumb met the Law of Murphy. The whole bumping into each other by accident, the getting into the same elevator, the being alone just the two of us in there, the awkward silent building, the elevator that stopped, the door that did not open and those lips in the corner of my left eye. Which I closed, together with the right one, so I would not dive into the most amazing ocean-colored eyes. I dunno when it started (I do, I really do), I dunno how it will end, but it already meant something, it already means something and it will always, always, always, unforgettably mean something.
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- Dear 2014, I Am Thankful. You Made Me Rise.
Querida Sofia, Já fiz grande parte do balanço de 2014 aqui. Para concluir o resumo, ao contrário de 2013, 2014 foi um dos melhores anos da minha vida e marcou-me muito, por razões extremamente positivas e extremamente negativas. Perdi...
- Karma, My (former) Love, This Is Karma!
Obrigada, querida Alicia Keys, não poderia definir a minha presente situação melhor do que tu. Thank you, my lovely Alicia Keys, for defining this whole situation I am currently in all too well. Weren't you the one who said that you don't...
- Ode To Last Night's Kiss
Shutting down the useless senses to let the ones required overflow. Putting yourself in a frame of mind where you do not listen anymore because you just strive to feel all this. Closing your eyes to sight and light because you want to touch. Giving a...
- Even Though We're Miles Apart...
I lie awake I've gone to ground I'm watching porn In my hotel dressing gown Now I dream of you But I still believe There's only enough for one in this Lonely hotel suite The journey's long And it feels so bad I'm thinking back to...
- Destiny - Zero 7
I lie awake I've gone to ground I'm watching porn In my hotel dressing gown Now I dream of you But I still believe There's only enough for one in this Lonely hotel suite The journey's long And it feels so bad I'm thinking back to...